The past couple of months have seen me through roller coaster upon roller coaster. A milestone in my life, if I may add. There's been emotional disappointments, career dilemmas, life directions all happening at once for me to deal with. In short, I was really going through a major mindset shift and that has resulted in several pretty huge changes in my current situation. And there's more to come.
Had my heart broken not too long ago. And yes, you are right, it is with regards to a boy. It has been way too long since my heart felt that broken. And helpless. To be honest, I didn't quite know what to do when the surge of emotional waves came. It felt almost foreign to me. Y'know, that special feeling you have for that special someone. This thing that people call love. Yes. Love. That familiar yet so-hard-to-grasp notion of being in love with someone.
Jem wrote this a while ago and it was exactly what I needed to hear.
Hearts returned. Rightful owner.
Yes, the pain of unrequited love is not easy to bear. And no one should put it down as something unimportant. They say time heals, but I like to add something more. God's Grace.
His Grace has brought me through the last heart break, which was more than five years ago. Back then, I never thought I'll ever love a man again. But I did. And guess what? My heart got broken again.
If I can survive the first heart break, I am sure I too, can survive the second one. With time and with Him.
A good friend wrote this on his facebook status, lyrics from a mandarin song in the 80s: "一生要失败几回才知道成功的意义,一生要爱过几回才了解爱的真谛..."
(loosely translated, it means how many times in a lifetime must one fail before they know the meaning of success, how many times in a lifetime must one love before they understand the essence of love.)
I only hope I do not need to go through this a third time.
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