Friday, May 4

It's been a real struggle this week thus far. Heaps of stuff happening in my life just this week alone. Trying to take a step back and have an overview perspective - emotions running high and hard-pressed for decisions that I ain't exactly sure of myself. Sounds confusing? Yes, I think so too.

Met Rachelle tonight and had a fantabulous time sharing with her my thoughts, views and feelings, not to mention a few interesting highlights that happened this week, including my decision to finally resign. Facing drama after drama at work this week alone and just feeling terribly worn-out. On top of that, there's personal issues that I have to resolve somehow in my heart. All in all, a real challenging week.

There's something amazing when you journal. A habit that I developed during my college days. Somehow, journalling sorta puts things into perspective, an avenue for you to really trash out your own thoughts regarding various issues in your life and provides a clearer picture for you to make certain decisions, especially when your mind is so cluttered with so many things and so many voices that you can't really be sure of what you are truly thinking.

Mind you, I do not journal every day though - a luxury I cannot afford especially in this fast-paced society that we are in. Nonetheless, when I DO get a chance to journal, it allows me to reflect and spend some "me-time". A theraputic affair in my opinion. To me, my "me-time" is exceptionally precious. It gives me a chance to spend time with myself, as weird as it may sound. After all, there are times when I find that I do not really know myself at all.

Never liked the fast pace of life. Often than not, I reckon that life gets by too quickly and I am having such a hard time catching up. And it's precisely for this very reason that I cherish my "me-time" even more. Never wanna get into that stage where I do not even know why I am doing what I am doing. That, in my honest opinion, is just sad.

Having said that, I am glad that I finally made up my mind this week on a few issues that have been bothering me for quite a while. At the very least, there's some kind of resolve in my heart and I am quite certain that my position will not change.

And now, to get by the rest of this week, I need to sleep more. Either that, or to pump my adrenaline to keep me going at least until Sunday.

Desperate for a good physical rest.

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