Heart-felt Talk

Spent a meaningful evening last night chatting online with a friend whom I have not talked to in a really long while. Been ages since I last had such a heart-to-heart talk with anyone. Appreciate that conversation very much indeed.

We digged out the unpleasant situations we had in the past, bringing things into the open. I suppose that's what make this friendship stronger. Like the saying "What does not break you, make you", in the same way, the messy situations we face in our friendship - they did not break our friendship. They only serve to make our friendship stronger.

Have no doubt about it, the messy stuff we had in the past - they were complicated, most unpleasant and have been a major impact in my own beliefs and faith in God, even until today. Those were situations I'd rather not have, history that I'd rather not remember, a past I have been avoiding for years - a mega turning point of my life. It's that serious a matter, to me at least.

To bring up that particular part of my life which I have always deemed to be a failure, especially to have to discuss it with the very person who is the center of all that complications, and yet be able to talk about it with the right heart attitude - that's definitely God at work. Knowing me, there's no way I could have talked about that part of my past without grimacing in pain and misery.

The fact that both of us were willing to talk about it - actually, it's that person who initiated it - shows how much we wanna make things right again. I appreciate that person having that courage, which I lack for so many years, to bring up that black mark in our friendship, and not pretend that nothing has happened. To me, it takes a true friend to do that.

What moved me even more is this - that friend never did feel good about all that has happened despite it being so long ago and apologised to me last night. It's an apology that I have been trying to avoid acknowledging, much less accepting. Up till now, I am still grappling with the issue of whether an apology is even needed. Yet at the same time, I appreciate that person caring enough to apologise. "Sorry" has never sound so real before.

What did not break our friendship only serve to make our friendship stronger - I believe that with my whole heart.

So to you my friend, who might be reading this which I doubt it, THANK YOU from the deepest part of my heart.

Thank you so much...